Hello again – a triumph to report!

Wow I thought I’d take a little break from blogging, as nothing really was happening, and suddenly it’s been two months!

So in some ways, nothing much has happened, but then in some ways an awful lot has happened.

To begin with HSG results – all fine. I was disappointed really, I was hoping I might have a blocked tube that the dye was going to push through and unblock and then suddenly I’d be all fertile and pregnant. However, this was not the case. When I picked up my results I was told all looked normal, but because of the pain I experience during my period (vomiting, fainting, unable to move) it was very likely to be endometriosis and I should book in for another laparoscopy. Following that, IVF would be the way to go.

Now I’ve already had one laparoscopy five years ago, and nothing showed up. I”m not keen to have yet another one, only for the same result to potentially come back. It took me weeks to recover from the first one, and I guess I just don’t feel ready for all that again. And if I do have endometriosis, they might be able to laser some of it off, and I’ll have a fertile window, but who knows for how long, and ultimately it will most likely come back.

I decided to go down a different route for a bit, implementing a massive diet overhaul and started taking Chinese herbs on top of my acupuncture. And do you know what? IT’S WORKING. I honestly cannot believe it, but for the first time in maybe 7 or 8 years, my period has not ruined almost two days of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I still need to take painkillers, but the difference is my body is responding to them – and just over the counter painkillers, not extra strong prescribed ones.

So this last weekend, when my period showed up (I had hoped it wouldn’t, even did a pregnancy test last week as was feeling hopeful, how silly of me) I WENT OUT on the main day of my period (usually the most painful). I went for lunch with friends, then later, my sister stayed, and I cooked dinner, and we watched a movie. I had a normal day. This is MASSIVE for me, life changing. My periods have interrupted my life for years and years: normally I can barely move, even getting to the bathroom is difficult, often I crawl around just willing time to pass whilst slowly going insane – I’ve even called A&E before.

What I’ve done: on top of the Chinese herbs, I’ve cut out all red meat entirely, and only eat chicken maybe once every two weeks if it’s organic. I have cut out dairy and also cut out about 80% of sugar from my diet (can anyone do 100%?!, surely not possible). So my diet has been mainly of fish and vegetables. Also (and I appreciate this is a bit nuts), I’ve switched my body wash, shampoo and conditioner to organic brands, with no added nasties.  I’ve also been using a magnesium spray which is meant to be a good way of boosting your levels as it absorbs quickly through the skin. Magnesium is meant to help with muscle relaxation and all sorts of good things – have a little look on Google if you’re interested! I guess the only downside is that I don’t actually know which of these things is actually working, or maybe it’s a combination!

I’m not saying it’s easy, or even possible to keep up long term, but I intend to keep it going for a good little while to see if my body balances itself out. And here’s my thinking, if my infertility is caused by endometriosis, then the inflammation is part of the problem. If I can reduce that inflammation and balance out my body naturally then who knows, maybe one day I can get pregnant. I know this is wishful thinking, but for now, the natural way is so much more appealing than going into hospital again for yet another procedure. As for the pregnancy thing, I’m not even thinking about it this month, I’m enjoying feeling fit and healthy and trying to listen to what my body needs.

SC x

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Acupuncture and Moxi What?!

So my husband and I have been trying to conceive for 13 months. We’ve had no luck. Last year I tried reflexology –  I’d heard positive stories and thought it sounded like a fancy foot massage so had no problem with giving it a go. The sessions were relaxing and I definitely benefited from them, but come the end of 2014 and still not a hint of pregnancy, I decided to try something new: acupuncture.

Acupuncture was not necessarily an easy choice for me, I have a bit of a fear of needles and did not really understand how it all worked, but I reached the point where I was willing to try anything, so off I went.

I was so nervous during my first session, and I’m not embarrassed to admit that my husband “M” had to come with me and hold my hand. The first hour was brilliant though as my practitioner took a huge amount of time getting to know me and my situation. It was therapeutic and rather lovely to have someone’s full attention for such a long time. She studied my tongue which is said to reflect my overall health and also took my pulse (again, not something I like, I hate anyone touching my wrists, something to do with the prominent veins showing).

Once I was lying on the table, I got worked up again and M had to stroke my forehead to calm me down. Despite my somewhat crazy behaviour (or normal for me) my practitioner was very understanding and gave me a lot of reassurance. During my first session I only had one needle in each toe and one in each hand. I managed to lay still for 20 minutes which for me was a mini triumph in itself.

As far as I understand from my practitioner, I have a stagnant blood problem and my womb is “cold” which is not ideal for conception. Acupuncture is used to gently encourage the movement of energy back around my body (I’m sure it’s more technical than this, but this is how I interpreted it). I suppose it does help to explain my painful periods, and since noone else can tell me what’s going on, I’m open to this idea for now!

I came away feeling proud that I had faced the needle fear, and confident that this was going to help me in my quest to get pregnant. I guess only time will tell.

I’ve now had three treatments. The second treatment didn’t go so well as I came over faint (of course I did) and a sugary drink had to be rushed into the room before I keeled over (all in my head). But the most recent treatment was much better. As well as the needles, I had something called “moxibustion”. I’d never heard of it, but essentially it’s a Chinese herb which looks like a cigar and is lit and held over the acupuncture points to warm them. It was warming and relaxing, and I could feel a strange pressure in my stomach. I liked the strange feeling, as it helped me to believe that something “different” was going on.

I”ve been given the moxi sticks to use at home. I used the first one last night. It feels strange waving a red hot poker stick above my stomach, I suspect if I stopped and questioned it too much I would wonder how I got to this point… but for now I”m going with it, for as long as I don’t drop the thing onto my stomach and severely burn myself then there can be no harm in trying….right??

SC x

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